Hi everyone, long time no see. If someone of you don't recognize me, I used to author here since C3 began and in December 2016, I suddenly stopped coming here and halted all customs I was currently making. For those who I was currently working on customs with at the time, let me say this that I am extremely sorry and I cannot apologize enough for what I did. I left a couple of very talented authors so suddenly without explanation and I hope they are able to forgive me. They didn't deserve it.
Now, you may be asking "Why did you leave? You had some great projects going I was very much looking forward to." Well, I guess it's hard for me to say lightly but when I was here last, I was struggling with a very hard addiction and had bad health problems which ultimately made me really depressed and lonely. I had started these projects because I wanted something to look forward to and hopefully get my mind off of things. I got so carried away with all the songs I wanted to author and ultimately hyped up a lot of songs in my projects that, at the end of the day, was struggling to complete and finish. My addiction continued to ruin my life and that's when I decided I couldn't do this anymore. So, I left C3 and stopped playing Rock Band entirely. It felt like a part of my life had died, because I loved C3 and this community so much, and I felt so horrible because a couple of authors had been counting on me with collaborations, but for some reason, the joy I had in creating Rock Band customs and coming here had started to disappear.
So why am I writing this now? Well, I'm very happy to say that I am 95% over my addiction and while it's been a rough year and a half, I feel like things are getting better. I'm finding life more enjoyable and I've started to get into Rock Band again and it's great! I just feel like I needed this time to myself to really think about where my life was going and what I wanted in life. I want to thank every single person who has enjoyed my customs through the years and who has supported me, as well as all the friends I've made here at this amazing community.
So now what? Well, I can't promise anything right now, but I've began to dabble in Reaper again to maybe make more custom songs again. I don't want to hype up all these songs that I can't deliver again, so I think I just need to author when I feel like it and hopefully release more songs in the future. I won't be announcing any big projects, and I really need to just work by myself now I think. I will continue to be active here once again and will be enjoying all the great songs that people here love to share.
Thank you for reading and I hope you all have a great Easter weekend.